My mother just returned from her birth-city. She met all her relatives ... Her sisters, their children etc etc. This one guy, my mother's elder sister's son-my cousin, somehow thought his opinion matters to me and said stupid things about me to my mother. I try to stay away from negative stuff but people like these always find a way to piss me off.
This guy, lets call him B, is a thirty-something year old man who just got married and is living in his parents house. He still takes money from his parents and makes his mother do all the chores in the house. He fights with his mother over his wife. He can't even get himself a glass of water. He needs his mother to get it for him. His mother who must be way over fifty now. And he is preaching MY mother about me.
We are friends in Facebook (were, actually. I blocked him and I hope he notices it and asks me why I blocked him in the first place. Oh how I would love to answer that!). When I got my tattoo, I posted a picture on it on my Facebook which is set in 'friends only' mode. So this guy saw that photo God-knows-when and made a mental note to bitch about it to my mother. What irritates me is that if he actually cared so much about me, why did he not directly talk to me? Why did he wait so long for my mother to visit then when he could've easily emailed me or texted me on Facebook? Bloody relatives.
When my mother met him he went all 'Maasi how could you allow her to get a tattoo? Why didn't you stop her blah blah'
Dude, do you think everybody's like you? Some of us don't have to depend on our parents for every bloody thing. And so mature of you to go 'complain' about me to my mother. So now you are going to teach her how to do her job? How many children do YOU have?
Everyone is entitled to their own opinion but that's it. You can just put what you want to in words but without permission, you can't ever comment on somebody's family matters. If you haven't helped me in some way, haven't played even a minor role in my life then I'm sorry your views hold ZERO MEANING for me. Null. You are just wasting your negative energy.
I would love to see how his children turn out. No I'm not wishing anything bad for me but life always bites back.
God bless you.
(And to think I have called you 'Bhaiya' my whole life)
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Thursday, May 16, 2013
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Let's Raise a Toast for The Dreamers!
We all have dreams. By dreams, I don't mean the tamed-out 'realistic versions of our dreams but the ones we had as kids. Remember those days when the word 'impossible' held no meaning for us? Those dreams.
What happened when we grew up? What happened to our dreams? Who shook us awake and made us look at everything differently and more carefully? When did we start replacing our dreams with plans? When did surviving become our priority instead of living? It is so sad to see real talent being suffocated by a false sense of security. If you've given up on your dreams because you think they are too unrealistic, you have already started withering away. You are just two steps away from becoming a zombie.
However painful it is to see people ditch their dreams for materialistic comforts, it is no denying the fact that it is easier to let go. While many people talk about 'following you heart', it is extremely difficult to do so. For some times, your heart leads you to dead ends. Following your heart means walking on an untraveled and neglected road: you don't know what to expect and you have no one to keep you company as the road is deserted but for a few warriors. The weak of heart turn back while the others turn out ti be some of the world's most influential people. Here's to those fighter who, inspite of all the hardships they faced, never gave up on their dreams.
The ones who suffered more in a single day than most suffer in their whole life time. The ones who fell down but never bent down. The ones who faced rejection from all kind of people, from every corner of the world. The ones who were mocked at for not being as successful as their fellow-men. The ones who saw their peers achieve their goals while they failed yet again. The ones with bruised souls and aching hearts.
Here's to the people who were looked down upon for not being on par with their companions' footsteps. The people who barely ate a square meal a day while the other people their age dined at fancy restaurants with their families. The ones who sacrificed everything only to have face humiliation because the others didn't understand their art. The ones who didn't give up, no matter how much pain they were in.
Here's to people who refused to let life take its toll on them; the ones who smiled even though their insides were burning with pain. The ones who didn't take their life for granted and welcomed even the things that hurt them with an open heart. For those are the people who know that only the ones who have felt pain can appreciate the value of what wonders the world can give to us. The ones who know that only the people who suffer can truly experience relief.
What happens to these people? They become legends as the only reason they stuck to their dreams was not because they wanted to show the people who laughed at them what they are capable of but because their dreams brought them closer to enlightenment, to God. Once they come out, wounded but intact from all the trivialities of life, they experience exhilarating happiness that makes all the hardships worth it. They win.
Had Steve Jobs given up after being fired, we would not have one of the most innovative companies in our lives. Had Einstein listened to his headmaster when he said he would never amount to much, we would have lost the best physicist of all ti,es. Rumor has it that Walt Disney was turned down more than three hundred times and was also accused of having n imagination. Had J.K. Rowling given up on Harry Potter when it was rejected for the twelfth time, we would've lost one of the world's best story-teller.
What is common among these people? They continued doing what they loved despite having the most unfavorable circumstances one could ever imagine.
So here's to the rebels who ignore all the mockery from the world. People laugh at them not because they see a failure in them but because they are afraid that someday these people might live the dreams that others gave up on. Hats off to those people who carry on when they have every reason to give up, for these people die with no regrets; they create history.
What happened when we grew up? What happened to our dreams? Who shook us awake and made us look at everything differently and more carefully? When did we start replacing our dreams with plans? When did surviving become our priority instead of living? It is so sad to see real talent being suffocated by a false sense of security. If you've given up on your dreams because you think they are too unrealistic, you have already started withering away. You are just two steps away from becoming a zombie.
However painful it is to see people ditch their dreams for materialistic comforts, it is no denying the fact that it is easier to let go. While many people talk about 'following you heart', it is extremely difficult to do so. For some times, your heart leads you to dead ends. Following your heart means walking on an untraveled and neglected road: you don't know what to expect and you have no one to keep you company as the road is deserted but for a few warriors. The weak of heart turn back while the others turn out ti be some of the world's most influential people. Here's to those fighter who, inspite of all the hardships they faced, never gave up on their dreams.
The ones who suffered more in a single day than most suffer in their whole life time. The ones who fell down but never bent down. The ones who faced rejection from all kind of people, from every corner of the world. The ones who were mocked at for not being as successful as their fellow-men. The ones who saw their peers achieve their goals while they failed yet again. The ones with bruised souls and aching hearts.
Here's to the people who were looked down upon for not being on par with their companions' footsteps. The people who barely ate a square meal a day while the other people their age dined at fancy restaurants with their families. The ones who sacrificed everything only to have face humiliation because the others didn't understand their art. The ones who didn't give up, no matter how much pain they were in.
Here's to people who refused to let life take its toll on them; the ones who smiled even though their insides were burning with pain. The ones who didn't take their life for granted and welcomed even the things that hurt them with an open heart. For those are the people who know that only the ones who have felt pain can appreciate the value of what wonders the world can give to us. The ones who know that only the people who suffer can truly experience relief.
What happens to these people? They become legends as the only reason they stuck to their dreams was not because they wanted to show the people who laughed at them what they are capable of but because their dreams brought them closer to enlightenment, to God. Once they come out, wounded but intact from all the trivialities of life, they experience exhilarating happiness that makes all the hardships worth it. They win.
Had Steve Jobs given up after being fired, we would not have one of the most innovative companies in our lives. Had Einstein listened to his headmaster when he said he would never amount to much, we would have lost the best physicist of all ti,es. Rumor has it that Walt Disney was turned down more than three hundred times and was also accused of having n imagination. Had J.K. Rowling given up on Harry Potter when it was rejected for the twelfth time, we would've lost one of the world's best story-teller.
What is common among these people? They continued doing what they loved despite having the most unfavorable circumstances one could ever imagine.
So here's to the rebels who ignore all the mockery from the world. People laugh at them not because they see a failure in them but because they are afraid that someday these people might live the dreams that others gave up on. Hats off to those people who carry on when they have every reason to give up, for these people die with no regrets; they create history.
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Everyone knows Everything.
A guy committed suicide and it's going around the whole city like some viral infection.
Everybody is talking about that.
A guy killed himself in the middle of the night (or day?) and everybody wants to know what happened.
Ofcourse there are the pretentious know-it-alls who didn't even know the guy but are telling people about him like he was their twin. Some are pretending to be really upset and heartbroken when they barely spoke to the guy. Why? Beats me. Why anybody would want to lie about being good friends with some guy who just killed himself is beyond me. Maybe they just want the attention people are giving them. Because everybody wants to know why a completely sane-looking guy shot himself in the heart (well, he tried to. Missed and got hit on the lungs instead.)
Not hours after his death, people started posting stuff on his Facebook wall, started updating their BBM statuses about him, replaced their DPs with his, uploaded a couple of photos on Facebook and wrote heartfelt messages as captions. I really don't know the point of all this because he's dead, not fatally ill. And writing stuff on someone's wall (after he dies) is utterly useless. No offence, but if someone I knew died, my first priority will be to go visit them (their family) if I can. If that person is as close to me as the people are making that guy seem to them, I'd be too shocked and heartbroken to have the time to update statuses. Hello? Somebody just died. How about you switch your phone off for a while instead of calling your friends and gossiping about him?
From experience I know that people who commit suicide have a lot on their mind. They want to escape from something. Loneliness, maybe. Or the people around them. The people who stay with them should experience some withdrawal. There can be many reasons behind a suicide-most of them unknown-but unless you know what's bothering the person BEFORE he kills himself, there's no point talking about it later. People here are talking about him as if they know everything about his life. They are so confidently accusing a girl for being the reason behind his suicide. If you knew so much, why didn't you step in before so at least he could be saved? Why do you need to talk about it now?
I hate it when people draw conclusions like this. The girl (whether she is responsible for the suicide or not) is being mentally harassed by people. They are saying crappy things about her. So much so even the newspapers have mentioned that the suicide is related to her. My point is, unless the girl was standing in the same room as the guy who committed suicide, the girl can't be blamed. She didn't pull the trigger and even if they had their differences, dying was the guys decision. The girl wasn't even in the same city.
I'm not saying that it's completely okay for people to break somebody's heart. I'm just saying that if they did, the other person should know better than to commit suicide. They have to accept that sometimes things just don't work out.
I'm so sick and tired of people bitching about this girl. I guess she was tired of being accused too since just hours after his death, she ingested acid in an attempt to kill herself. And after listening to this, people are saying things like "Bach Gayi ... Marna hi tha to zeher pi Leti"
Seriously? So since the guy died, you want her to die too? How stupid is that.
Well, the people here feed on dramas. It's sick but it is how it is.
Everybody is talking about that.
A guy killed himself in the middle of the night (or day?) and everybody wants to know what happened.
Ofcourse there are the pretentious know-it-alls who didn't even know the guy but are telling people about him like he was their twin. Some are pretending to be really upset and heartbroken when they barely spoke to the guy. Why? Beats me. Why anybody would want to lie about being good friends with some guy who just killed himself is beyond me. Maybe they just want the attention people are giving them. Because everybody wants to know why a completely sane-looking guy shot himself in the heart (well, he tried to. Missed and got hit on the lungs instead.)
Not hours after his death, people started posting stuff on his Facebook wall, started updating their BBM statuses about him, replaced their DPs with his, uploaded a couple of photos on Facebook and wrote heartfelt messages as captions. I really don't know the point of all this because he's dead, not fatally ill. And writing stuff on someone's wall (after he dies) is utterly useless. No offence, but if someone I knew died, my first priority will be to go visit them (their family) if I can. If that person is as close to me as the people are making that guy seem to them, I'd be too shocked and heartbroken to have the time to update statuses. Hello? Somebody just died. How about you switch your phone off for a while instead of calling your friends and gossiping about him?
From experience I know that people who commit suicide have a lot on their mind. They want to escape from something. Loneliness, maybe. Or the people around them. The people who stay with them should experience some withdrawal. There can be many reasons behind a suicide-most of them unknown-but unless you know what's bothering the person BEFORE he kills himself, there's no point talking about it later. People here are talking about him as if they know everything about his life. They are so confidently accusing a girl for being the reason behind his suicide. If you knew so much, why didn't you step in before so at least he could be saved? Why do you need to talk about it now?
I hate it when people draw conclusions like this. The girl (whether she is responsible for the suicide or not) is being mentally harassed by people. They are saying crappy things about her. So much so even the newspapers have mentioned that the suicide is related to her. My point is, unless the girl was standing in the same room as the guy who committed suicide, the girl can't be blamed. She didn't pull the trigger and even if they had their differences, dying was the guys decision. The girl wasn't even in the same city.
I'm not saying that it's completely okay for people to break somebody's heart. I'm just saying that if they did, the other person should know better than to commit suicide. They have to accept that sometimes things just don't work out.
I'm so sick and tired of people bitching about this girl. I guess she was tired of being accused too since just hours after his death, she ingested acid in an attempt to kill herself. And after listening to this, people are saying things like "Bach Gayi ... Marna hi tha to zeher pi Leti"
Seriously? So since the guy died, you want her to die too? How stupid is that.
Well, the people here feed on dramas. It's sick but it is how it is.
Friday, May 10, 2013
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
I am as I am-Take it and go!
<3 I will take my time to grow up. Don't even try to rush me into it!
<3 I will make a laughing stock out of myself in public nine out of ten times. Maybe I'll fall down, drop my phone/bag, be really loud, laugh very hard and even snort like a pig in between, look like a freak on the days I am too lazy to doll myself up properly, look at the price tag at some high-end mall and grasp while clutching my chest and yell "25000 rupees for a handbag?! THIS HANDBAG?! I AM SOOOO NOT PAYING FOR IT!" (Don't judge me, I was born in a middle class Indian family!), incredible number of times I am going to cancel going to a fancy restaurant for eating at Subway or having road-side Pani Puri (what?! A girl can't have her addictions to roadside food?!) and I might even get angry and shout at you in front of everyone and not be bothered by them staring at us. If I embarrass you, don't stay in my life.
<3 I will get these fads each day/month/year where I am suddenly obsessed with one random thing-lipstick, eye shadow, clothes, shoes, tv serials, Russell Peters ... Those days, I am going to spend most of the time talking about them. If I bore you, don't worry, you are free to leave.
<3 One day, out of blue moon, I'll go into Sanyas-mode and switch my phone/computer everything off and deactivate my facebook/twitter or anything that connects me to my fellow apes. That doesn't mean I'm being selfish, I just need some time for myself. If you think you can't handle my mood swings? Goodbye!
<3 I'm going to talk about things which you think are stupid for you, like positive thinking and The Secret and Harry Potter. While these are not important topics for you, they mean a lot to me. So if you can't listen-or even pretend to listen-I can very well show you the door.
<3 If you can't get rid of your phone for a little while even when I'm talking to you, I'll text you GTG 4eva!!
Geez it annoys the shit out of me when people are looking at their phone while I am talking! Makes me look so stupid! (As I need THEM to make me look stupid *rolls eyes* )
<3 I am going to obsess over the colour *pink* and buy things that look cute but serve no purpose. Hell I have even bought an ugly lipstick shade just because i loved its packaging. If you are going to tease me about it, make sure you don't cross the line.
<3 I will be nice to you as long as you are nice to me. And vice versa.
<3 Money doesn't impress me. Not even a bit. So if you are planning to show off, don't. Because that'll just make me avoid you in future. It annoys me to the maximum. What annoys me even more are people who take pride in their parents' money. Unless you have earned everything ON YOUR OWN, it's extremely annoying of you to gloat like a puffer fish.
<3 I like smart people. Intelligent people. Not the know-it-alls but simple common sense and manners go a long way. You'd be surprised at the number of people (even Christians) who think 25th December is Jesus Christ's birthday. If you are one of them, I am so sorry for you.
<3 I am fat. Okay? Now shut up. I hate people who make personal remarks. Honestly? Didn't your mother teach you anything at all?! Leave. Now.
<3 Dramas? No thanks. People above the age of 18 should NEVER be a part of stupid teenage dramas. I don't have time for all that (even though time is the only thing I have got at the moment.)
<3 I have a mother of an intuition. I can look at the person and I can tell what kind of person they are. No I'm not judgemental. I just get these positive/negative vibes from people I meet for the first time and I BLINDLY TRUAT IT BECAUSE IT HAS NEVER YET BEEN WRONG. So if we meet once and I don't get back in touch, you know why.
<3 I hate girls whose only aim in life is getting guys. Ugh. Also the girls who stick to their boyfriends like some leech. And the people who can't get over their ex. I have heard about some of them even try to kill themselves because 'they can't live without him/her'. You were very alive BEFORE you met them. I don't see why you can't survive AFTER they are gone.
<3 I HATE MEN WHO THINK GIRLS WHO WEAR SHORT/REVEALING CLOTHES DESERVE TO GET RAPED. ALSO THE GUYS WHO OBJECTIFY WOMEN AND CALL THEM WHORES/SLUTS/PROSTITUTES. HOW MANY PEOPLE SHE SLEEPS WITH IS NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS AND SHE SURE DOESN'T NEED LOSERS LIKE YOU TO LABEL HER.
<3 In continuation to the above point if also like to say: WE DON'T WEAR MAKEUP SOLELY FOR MAKING US MORE ATTRACTIVE FOR MEN. Sure, that may be a factor but not the only one. We do it because we like prettifying ourselves FOR US. Just like men like pimping up their rides.
<3 That's all I can think of right now.
So I'll abruptly end my post and go study now.
Ciao xxxx
<3 I will make a laughing stock out of myself in public nine out of ten times. Maybe I'll fall down, drop my phone/bag, be really loud, laugh very hard and even snort like a pig in between, look like a freak on the days I am too lazy to doll myself up properly, look at the price tag at some high-end mall and grasp while clutching my chest and yell "25000 rupees for a handbag?! THIS HANDBAG?! I AM SOOOO NOT PAYING FOR IT!" (Don't judge me, I was born in a middle class Indian family!), incredible number of times I am going to cancel going to a fancy restaurant for eating at Subway or having road-side Pani Puri (what?! A girl can't have her addictions to roadside food?!) and I might even get angry and shout at you in front of everyone and not be bothered by them staring at us. If I embarrass you, don't stay in my life.
<3 I will get these fads each day/month/year where I am suddenly obsessed with one random thing-lipstick, eye shadow, clothes, shoes, tv serials, Russell Peters ... Those days, I am going to spend most of the time talking about them. If I bore you, don't worry, you are free to leave.
<3 One day, out of blue moon, I'll go into Sanyas-mode and switch my phone/computer everything off and deactivate my facebook/twitter or anything that connects me to my fellow apes. That doesn't mean I'm being selfish, I just need some time for myself. If you think you can't handle my mood swings? Goodbye!
<3 I'm going to talk about things which you think are stupid for you, like positive thinking and The Secret and Harry Potter. While these are not important topics for you, they mean a lot to me. So if you can't listen-or even pretend to listen-I can very well show you the door.
<3 If you can't get rid of your phone for a little while even when I'm talking to you, I'll text you GTG 4eva!!
Geez it annoys the shit out of me when people are looking at their phone while I am talking! Makes me look so stupid! (As I need THEM to make me look stupid *rolls eyes* )
<3 I am going to obsess over the colour *pink* and buy things that look cute but serve no purpose. Hell I have even bought an ugly lipstick shade just because i loved its packaging. If you are going to tease me about it, make sure you don't cross the line.
<3 I will be nice to you as long as you are nice to me. And vice versa.
<3 Money doesn't impress me. Not even a bit. So if you are planning to show off, don't. Because that'll just make me avoid you in future. It annoys me to the maximum. What annoys me even more are people who take pride in their parents' money. Unless you have earned everything ON YOUR OWN, it's extremely annoying of you to gloat like a puffer fish.
<3 I like smart people. Intelligent people. Not the know-it-alls but simple common sense and manners go a long way. You'd be surprised at the number of people (even Christians) who think 25th December is Jesus Christ's birthday. If you are one of them, I am so sorry for you.
<3 I am fat. Okay? Now shut up. I hate people who make personal remarks. Honestly? Didn't your mother teach you anything at all?! Leave. Now.
<3 Dramas? No thanks. People above the age of 18 should NEVER be a part of stupid teenage dramas. I don't have time for all that (even though time is the only thing I have got at the moment.)
<3 I have a mother of an intuition. I can look at the person and I can tell what kind of person they are. No I'm not judgemental. I just get these positive/negative vibes from people I meet for the first time and I BLINDLY TRUAT IT BECAUSE IT HAS NEVER YET BEEN WRONG. So if we meet once and I don't get back in touch, you know why.
<3 I hate girls whose only aim in life is getting guys. Ugh. Also the girls who stick to their boyfriends like some leech. And the people who can't get over their ex. I have heard about some of them even try to kill themselves because 'they can't live without him/her'. You were very alive BEFORE you met them. I don't see why you can't survive AFTER they are gone.
<3 I HATE MEN WHO THINK GIRLS WHO WEAR SHORT/REVEALING CLOTHES DESERVE TO GET RAPED. ALSO THE GUYS WHO OBJECTIFY WOMEN AND CALL THEM WHORES/SLUTS/PROSTITUTES. HOW MANY PEOPLE SHE SLEEPS WITH IS NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS AND SHE SURE DOESN'T NEED LOSERS LIKE YOU TO LABEL HER.
<3 In continuation to the above point if also like to say: WE DON'T WEAR MAKEUP SOLELY FOR MAKING US MORE ATTRACTIVE FOR MEN. Sure, that may be a factor but not the only one. We do it because we like prettifying ourselves FOR US. Just like men like pimping up their rides.
<3 That's all I can think of right now.
So I'll abruptly end my post and go study now.
Ciao xxxx
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Random
I realised something today while I was studying. I am not really that interested in money. Weird right? I spend half of my time buying stuff and thinking about ways to earn because I don't like asking my parents for money but all I want from my life is to be independent.
But I also want to roam the world, own a nice car, don't want to look at the price tag before buying stuff...so I do, in fact, need money.
In short I'll be completely satisfied if I have just enough money to fulfil my dreams and I'll be okay to die with no bank balance. I want to earn EXACTLY as much as I want to spend.
Does that make sense? O_o
God, I am sleepy. I have this exam coming up for which I haven't prepared yet (OBVIOUSLY) so I planned on staying awake the whole night for studying.
No wonder I flunk...my brain is so whimsical! One minute I am solving questions on Synchronous Motor and the other minute I'm questioning my life and my existence. Geez.
Also I am thinking about telling my friends about my blog. I am getting these scary vibes that if I don't do that soon, they're going to find out about it anyhow. Should I also delete some of my posts that have them?
Maybe I should let them read?
It will take ages to go through the whole blog and delete stuff.
Never mind.
Engineering is driving me nuts :(
Maybe I should go sleep now and study later. How much more can I robotically learn in less than 48hours anyway.
Night all xxxxx
But I also want to roam the world, own a nice car, don't want to look at the price tag before buying stuff...so I do, in fact, need money.
In short I'll be completely satisfied if I have just enough money to fulfil my dreams and I'll be okay to die with no bank balance. I want to earn EXACTLY as much as I want to spend.
Does that make sense? O_o
God, I am sleepy. I have this exam coming up for which I haven't prepared yet (OBVIOUSLY) so I planned on staying awake the whole night for studying.
No wonder I flunk...my brain is so whimsical! One minute I am solving questions on Synchronous Motor and the other minute I'm questioning my life and my existence. Geez.
Also I am thinking about telling my friends about my blog. I am getting these scary vibes that if I don't do that soon, they're going to find out about it anyhow. Should I also delete some of my posts that have them?
Maybe I should let them read?
It will take ages to go through the whole blog and delete stuff.
Never mind.
Engineering is driving me nuts :(
Maybe I should go sleep now and study later. How much more can I robotically learn in less than 48hours anyway.
Night all xxxxx
WAIT, WHAT?!!! DID I JUST WIN SOMETHING FOR THE FIRST EVER TIME IN MY INSIGNIFICANT LIFE?! HELL, YEAH!!!!!!!
I can barely stop myself from doing a happy dance and patting myself on my back simultaneously!!! I have been chosen the GRAND PRIZE WINNER FOR THE SUNSILK STRAIGHT HAIR CHALLENGE CONTEST ON INDIBLOGGER!!!! Yes you heard right!!! For once in my life I have actually won something! (Last I remember I won a silver medal in basketball two years back. Sounds awesome, right? Except it was intracollege and only two teams had participated. The winning team got the gold medal while the losing team, namely us, got the silver medal)
Oh my God I am so happy!!!! Some of you might think I'm over reacting but I swear I am not. This is so important to me. Only someone who has been failing day after day continuously can understand my joy!!!!
Thank you sunsilk, for choosing me!!! And idiva for featuring me. I'm on the seventh cloud (or the ninth? I have no idea. I'm so happy)
I tripped over the centre table in excitement!!!
Now I'm gonna play "Into the Night" in a continuous loop and dance till my legs drop !!!
Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!
Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Oh my God I am so happy!!!! Some of you might think I'm over reacting but I swear I am not. This is so important to me. Only someone who has been failing day after day continuously can understand my joy!!!!
Thank you sunsilk, for choosing me!!! And idiva for featuring me. I'm on the seventh cloud (or the ninth? I have no idea. I'm so happy)
I tripped over the centre table in excitement!!!
Now I'm gonna play "Into the Night" in a continuous loop and dance till my legs drop !!!
Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!
Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Monday, May 6, 2013
Illuminati?
Well I have an exam nearby and of course I'm doing everything in my power to procrastinate studying so obviously I'm just chilling and reading weird freaky stuff on the Internet and scarring myself for life.
YouTube has to get an award for making people end up on the randomest place imaginable.
So well as you can see from the title, I recently came across this really fascinating conspiracy (?) theory. And it all started when I decided to watch cartoons on YouTube. How was I supposed to know that everything was kind of related?
I mean we all knew about disney sending out subliminal messages via their cartoons from the Dan Brown book. We also knew about the illuminati from him. I instantly believed everything written in the novel about the illuminati and so reading about One World Order and all made me a little skeptic about everything. Until I came across some crazy stuff about Lady Gaga and Tupac and Eminem. I don't know whether they are true but they sure did send a chill up my spine. Then I googled conspiracy theories that did happen to be true and there was this MK Ultra conspiracy that involved brainwashing and existed for real. And that's the kind of thing the illuminati is accused of doing: brainwashing people.
Then I landed on a YouTube video where Britney Spears was being interviewed about how she was dealing with her life after her breakup and at one point, you can actually see her hazing out, like really blanking out, and suddenly gaining composure and breaking down. It could've been an emotional breakdown, but it creepily looked like she was getting out of some kind of trance.
Then there are the symbolism of devil worshipping that can be found in many of the videos of the leading artists of today. Rihanna is called the illuminati princess and she's not really doing a great job of thwarting the accusations. I mean, there's this really creepy part in the video of umbrella where she's in a triangle and she somehow bends to form a devils face.
There are other instances in other videos where you can actually see the word illuminati scrawled on the wall behind her.
Is she really a part of this gang pr is she just using it for her publicity (which she doesn't need owing to the fact that she's known throughout the world).
They say Michael Jackson was going to reveal everything about the illuminati and that's why he was murdered.
I don't know how much of it is true but I do know that I'll be haunted with creepy nightmares tonight.
Need. To. Get. A. Life.
YouTube has to get an award for making people end up on the randomest place imaginable.
So well as you can see from the title, I recently came across this really fascinating conspiracy (?) theory. And it all started when I decided to watch cartoons on YouTube. How was I supposed to know that everything was kind of related?
I mean we all knew about disney sending out subliminal messages via their cartoons from the Dan Brown book. We also knew about the illuminati from him. I instantly believed everything written in the novel about the illuminati and so reading about One World Order and all made me a little skeptic about everything. Until I came across some crazy stuff about Lady Gaga and Tupac and Eminem. I don't know whether they are true but they sure did send a chill up my spine. Then I googled conspiracy theories that did happen to be true and there was this MK Ultra conspiracy that involved brainwashing and existed for real. And that's the kind of thing the illuminati is accused of doing: brainwashing people.
Then I landed on a YouTube video where Britney Spears was being interviewed about how she was dealing with her life after her breakup and at one point, you can actually see her hazing out, like really blanking out, and suddenly gaining composure and breaking down. It could've been an emotional breakdown, but it creepily looked like she was getting out of some kind of trance.
Then there are the symbolism of devil worshipping that can be found in many of the videos of the leading artists of today. Rihanna is called the illuminati princess and she's not really doing a great job of thwarting the accusations. I mean, there's this really creepy part in the video of umbrella where she's in a triangle and she somehow bends to form a devils face.
There are other instances in other videos where you can actually see the word illuminati scrawled on the wall behind her.
Is she really a part of this gang pr is she just using it for her publicity (which she doesn't need owing to the fact that she's known throughout the world).
They say Michael Jackson was going to reveal everything about the illuminati and that's why he was murdered.
I don't know how much of it is true but I do know that I'll be haunted with creepy nightmares tonight.
Need. To. Get. A. Life.
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Change
How can people manage to disappoint you again and again and again?
I mean, they do something very hurtful to you and you think that they could never do anything worse than that and yet again you are left shocked. Wise people say you should forgive people and move on but what if the people you forgive never change? What if they again bite your back? Who would you have to blame then? Just yourself. Because you were stupid enough to trust them again.
You say forgiving is nothing about trusting but it is. You can forgive anybody until you let go of everything they have done. That means trusting them again.
And if you don't forgive them and stop talking to them too then why do their actions bother you? Why can't you simply stop caring about their lives?
I was talking to a very old friend tonight. Someone I knew since I was in school and that person said something that hurt me a lot. Not that it was something that was meant to hurt me. It wasn't even related to me. Yet I was left thinking about it for hours. This same person had betrayed me in the most horrible way anyone could have years ago. But I forgave him. Because I truly believed that people could change.
They don't.
People don't change. They might pretend to be somebody else for a while but ultimately they are the same deep inside. A greedy person will always take the last bite from a packet of chips no wonder how rich he is or how many packets he owns. A selfish person will never share his ideas with others even though he won't have anything to lose. A jealous person would still hate to see a new dress on a colleague even though she has a whole house full of clothes.
We talk about change but its just talks. Nobody ever changes completely. Yeah you can sophisticate yourself, change the way you carry yourself, leave the last bite of chip for your friend but you wouldn't help but feel upset for some time.
Hell I promise myself I'd change my ways everyday I wake up but I never do too.
You just have to hope your factory setting is good.
I mean, they do something very hurtful to you and you think that they could never do anything worse than that and yet again you are left shocked. Wise people say you should forgive people and move on but what if the people you forgive never change? What if they again bite your back? Who would you have to blame then? Just yourself. Because you were stupid enough to trust them again.
You say forgiving is nothing about trusting but it is. You can forgive anybody until you let go of everything they have done. That means trusting them again.
And if you don't forgive them and stop talking to them too then why do their actions bother you? Why can't you simply stop caring about their lives?
I was talking to a very old friend tonight. Someone I knew since I was in school and that person said something that hurt me a lot. Not that it was something that was meant to hurt me. It wasn't even related to me. Yet I was left thinking about it for hours. This same person had betrayed me in the most horrible way anyone could have years ago. But I forgave him. Because I truly believed that people could change.
They don't.
People don't change. They might pretend to be somebody else for a while but ultimately they are the same deep inside. A greedy person will always take the last bite from a packet of chips no wonder how rich he is or how many packets he owns. A selfish person will never share his ideas with others even though he won't have anything to lose. A jealous person would still hate to see a new dress on a colleague even though she has a whole house full of clothes.
We talk about change but its just talks. Nobody ever changes completely. Yeah you can sophisticate yourself, change the way you carry yourself, leave the last bite of chip for your friend but you wouldn't help but feel upset for some time.
Hell I promise myself I'd change my ways everyday I wake up but I never do too.
You just have to hope your factory setting is good.
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Do you even know the meaning of slut?
I know what others say about me shouldn't matter to me much. Then why do I feel like crying now?
They call me a high profile escort. People. Do they even know me to say such a thing about me? Who have I spent time with for money? I don't even let my friends pay my bill for me. Do they think its a joke? That my life is a joke?
I know I might me over reacting but for the first time after hearing something like this about me, I'm not angry. I am hurt. Hurt real bad. Because I am not like that.
I hate this place.
My friend-one of my closest friend-said I'm a very easy-to-get kind of person. That anybody can have me as their girlfriend if they have money. Is that why I'm single since so long? If my friend is saying things like this about me, should I really be surprised about what others say?
Fuck you. Fuck all of you fuckers.
I hope someday somebody calls your girlfriend/sister/mother a high profile escort. Then you will know how much it hurts.
Money? I have never been with somebody for their money. Never in my entire life. Infact I can even name guys who have asked me out-rich guys-and I have turned them down. Hell, I'm twenty and I haven't even dated more than two guys. Not even gone for a coffee with guys. And even if I did, it's none of their fucking business.
What is with guys calling girls escorts/sluts? If a guy asks a girl out and she says yes then he'll go and tell his friends how big a slut she is for saying yes. If she doesn't say yes, he'll still go and tell his friends how big a slut she is for hurting his ego. Why do they even use slut as a derogatory term?
When a guy sleeps with a thousand girls, he becomes history. He's loved by everybody. A hero. Take Charlie Harper from Two and a Half Men for example. Also, Barney Stinson from How I Met Your Mother. These guys become legen-waitforit-dary. But girls? No. If a girl sleeps with more than a guy(and even that guy should be her husband) she becomes a whore. Way to go.
One of the definitions of slut is: A woman prostitute.
I'm so bloody irritated by guys pulling up the slut card all the fucking time that it actually makes me want to murder somebody. Do you even know what a prostitute mean? A woman who sleeps with men for money. Kinda like a man who licks his boss's feet for money. Kinda like a politician who butters up to people for votes that ultimately leads to money. My point? IT IS A PROFESSION! A JOB. Yes, not a very respectable job per se but A JOB. Period.
Which woman would choose such a job for herself? None! They do it out of desperation! It's easy to say that you'd die of hunger before letting anybody touch you but I would literally worship a person who actually manages to starve himself to death SPECIALLY if they have the option of earning a little money even if they don't have a fancy degree. In the end, survival matters.
These girls, they don't go and force you to sleep with them. If you have such high moralistic stands, why don't you go and do your jobs and let these girls do theirs? Hasn't it ever EVER crossed your mind that prostitution was so much in demand because MEN ARE PAYING FOR IT? In a city, at max, there must be a thousand prostitutes. Even two thousand. Have you ever tried to find out HOW MANY CUSTOMERS THEY HAVE?!
They are EARNING THEIR MONEY NOT STEALING IT. NOT CONNING SOMEBODY. NOT MURDERING SOMEBODY. You bloody hypocrites.
So next time you dislike somebody, why don't you call them a thief? Or a murderer? Or a a bloody rapist? Because, honestly these words are a lot more insulting than 'slut'. But wait, I forgot, WE LIVE IN A COUNTRY WHERE A RAPIST DOESN'T HAVE TO SUFFER AS MUCH AS THE RAPE-VICTIM. I FORGOT, WE LIVE IN A COUNTRY WHERE WHEN A WOMAN GETS RAPED, IT'S HER MISTAKE BECAUSE SHE WAS ATTRACTING MEN BY WEARING PROVOCATIVE CLOTHES. WE LIVE IN A COUNTRY WHERE EVEN FIVE YEAR OLDS ARE RAPED AND THE RAPISTS ARE LET GO OF SCOTCH-FUCKING-FREE. WHERE MEN HAVE NO FEAR OF THE LAW BECAUSE THEY KNOW THEY CAN BUY IT.
What a wonderful country we live in. Aren't you proud of it?
You know what? I'm done. I'm tired of finding the good in people. In reality, most of the people just suck. They are sick sons of bitches who just don't deserve my or any other girls' attention. I know I might not be the only girl going through something as sick as this so if somebody in the same situation as me is reading this, I'd just like to say hold on. These people don't matter. I know it hurts hearing something like this but don't worry. What goes around comes back around. It truly does. They'll get what they fucking deserve. Till then, you keep your head up high. Nobody has a right to tell where you belong.
It's so difficult to be a girl.
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UPDATE:
So I was browsing similar issues like mine on the net last night and I found a gem. A girl also being harassed asked what she should do on yahoo answer. And one answer made a lot of sense:
"I am sorry that this happened to you, and I can understand why you hurt by being labeled a "slut". It's meant to be hurtful and demeaning which are some of the reasons I really hate that word. It's essentially meaningless. (After all what's wrong with having sex? How much is "too much" sex? Who decides?) Most of the time, being labeled a "slut" has little or nothing to do with a person's actual behavior and everything to do with want to make people feel bad about themselves. I can't tell you how many times I seen girls who had never even kissed called "sluts", so I hope you will stop blaming yourself. No matter what you have or haven't done, you *do not* deserve it.
If you are genuinely unhappy with the choices you've made (any choices, sexual or not) that's OK. Everyone makes mistakes. That's how we figure out who we are and grow from it. So, for yourself, my advice is learn, and move on.
As for other people, I'm not sure that there is much you can do, except hold your head high, and know that you're a good person. I can't say for sure, but I suspect that if you are confident in yourself, and show others that they are not hurting you, they'll move on too, because the name call isn't getting the desired results.
Anyway, for better advise, I strongly suggest Scarleteen.com if you haven't already checked it out. It's a sex ed/relationships site for teens and twenty-somethings. They have a forum where you can get advice and the people who run it are fantastic. (To be clear, I have no association with them. I just like the site.)
Anyway, best of luck!
Source(s):
http://www.scarleteen.com/
Answer by J.T. 3 years ago Report Abuse"
They call me a high profile escort. People. Do they even know me to say such a thing about me? Who have I spent time with for money? I don't even let my friends pay my bill for me. Do they think its a joke? That my life is a joke?
I know I might me over reacting but for the first time after hearing something like this about me, I'm not angry. I am hurt. Hurt real bad. Because I am not like that.
I hate this place.
My friend-one of my closest friend-said I'm a very easy-to-get kind of person. That anybody can have me as their girlfriend if they have money. Is that why I'm single since so long? If my friend is saying things like this about me, should I really be surprised about what others say?
Fuck you. Fuck all of you fuckers.
I hope someday somebody calls your girlfriend/sister/mother a high profile escort. Then you will know how much it hurts.
Money? I have never been with somebody for their money. Never in my entire life. Infact I can even name guys who have asked me out-rich guys-and I have turned them down. Hell, I'm twenty and I haven't even dated more than two guys. Not even gone for a coffee with guys. And even if I did, it's none of their fucking business.
What is with guys calling girls escorts/sluts? If a guy asks a girl out and she says yes then he'll go and tell his friends how big a slut she is for saying yes. If she doesn't say yes, he'll still go and tell his friends how big a slut she is for hurting his ego. Why do they even use slut as a derogatory term?
When a guy sleeps with a thousand girls, he becomes history. He's loved by everybody. A hero. Take Charlie Harper from Two and a Half Men for example. Also, Barney Stinson from How I Met Your Mother. These guys become legen-waitforit-dary. But girls? No. If a girl sleeps with more than a guy(and even that guy should be her husband) she becomes a whore. Way to go.
One of the definitions of slut is: A woman prostitute.
I'm so bloody irritated by guys pulling up the slut card all the fucking time that it actually makes me want to murder somebody. Do you even know what a prostitute mean? A woman who sleeps with men for money. Kinda like a man who licks his boss's feet for money. Kinda like a politician who butters up to people for votes that ultimately leads to money. My point? IT IS A PROFESSION! A JOB. Yes, not a very respectable job per se but A JOB. Period.
Which woman would choose such a job for herself? None! They do it out of desperation! It's easy to say that you'd die of hunger before letting anybody touch you but I would literally worship a person who actually manages to starve himself to death SPECIALLY if they have the option of earning a little money even if they don't have a fancy degree. In the end, survival matters.
These girls, they don't go and force you to sleep with them. If you have such high moralistic stands, why don't you go and do your jobs and let these girls do theirs? Hasn't it ever EVER crossed your mind that prostitution was so much in demand because MEN ARE PAYING FOR IT? In a city, at max, there must be a thousand prostitutes. Even two thousand. Have you ever tried to find out HOW MANY CUSTOMERS THEY HAVE?!
They are EARNING THEIR MONEY NOT STEALING IT. NOT CONNING SOMEBODY. NOT MURDERING SOMEBODY. You bloody hypocrites.
So next time you dislike somebody, why don't you call them a thief? Or a murderer? Or a a bloody rapist? Because, honestly these words are a lot more insulting than 'slut'. But wait, I forgot, WE LIVE IN A COUNTRY WHERE A RAPIST DOESN'T HAVE TO SUFFER AS MUCH AS THE RAPE-VICTIM. I FORGOT, WE LIVE IN A COUNTRY WHERE WHEN A WOMAN GETS RAPED, IT'S HER MISTAKE BECAUSE SHE WAS ATTRACTING MEN BY WEARING PROVOCATIVE CLOTHES. WE LIVE IN A COUNTRY WHERE EVEN FIVE YEAR OLDS ARE RAPED AND THE RAPISTS ARE LET GO OF SCOTCH-FUCKING-FREE. WHERE MEN HAVE NO FEAR OF THE LAW BECAUSE THEY KNOW THEY CAN BUY IT.
What a wonderful country we live in. Aren't you proud of it?
You know what? I'm done. I'm tired of finding the good in people. In reality, most of the people just suck. They are sick sons of bitches who just don't deserve my or any other girls' attention. I know I might not be the only girl going through something as sick as this so if somebody in the same situation as me is reading this, I'd just like to say hold on. These people don't matter. I know it hurts hearing something like this but don't worry. What goes around comes back around. It truly does. They'll get what they fucking deserve. Till then, you keep your head up high. Nobody has a right to tell where you belong.
It's so difficult to be a girl.
***************************************************
UPDATE:
So I was browsing similar issues like mine on the net last night and I found a gem. A girl also being harassed asked what she should do on yahoo answer. And one answer made a lot of sense:
"I am sorry that this happened to you, and I can understand why you hurt by being labeled a "slut". It's meant to be hurtful and demeaning which are some of the reasons I really hate that word. It's essentially meaningless. (After all what's wrong with having sex? How much is "too much" sex? Who decides?) Most of the time, being labeled a "slut" has little or nothing to do with a person's actual behavior and everything to do with want to make people feel bad about themselves. I can't tell you how many times I seen girls who had never even kissed called "sluts", so I hope you will stop blaming yourself. No matter what you have or haven't done, you *do not* deserve it.
If you are genuinely unhappy with the choices you've made (any choices, sexual or not) that's OK. Everyone makes mistakes. That's how we figure out who we are and grow from it. So, for yourself, my advice is learn, and move on.
As for other people, I'm not sure that there is much you can do, except hold your head high, and know that you're a good person. I can't say for sure, but I suspect that if you are confident in yourself, and show others that they are not hurting you, they'll move on too, because the name call isn't getting the desired results.
Anyway, for better advise, I strongly suggest Scarleteen.com if you haven't already checked it out. It's a sex ed/relationships site for teens and twenty-somethings. They have a forum where you can get advice and the people who run it are fantastic. (To be clear, I have no association with them. I just like the site.)
Anyway, best of luck!
Source(s):
http://www.scarleteen.com/
Answer by J.T. 3 years ago Report Abuse"
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